I Eat My Feelings

My last post I mentioned that I had every "bad" eating habit that there was. Well really they are all about the same thing. you can call it binge eating, compulsive eating, overeating, whatever you would like but they all end up being the same thing I think. 

I have learned that losing weight is a physical journey and that is where most people leave it (including me until now). There is a HUGE mental part of losing weight and becoming healthy. I understood this, but how do to attack and handle something when it is something you can see. The mental part is the hard part, you can't see the change and other people don't know that it really exists (half the time you don't know that it does) but at the same time it controls EVERYTHING you do. When your sad you eat, when your happy you go out and celebrate and eat, when your stressed you eat, your tired eat something... 

What do you do when you want to end this endless cycle of eating and then eating again because you feel bad for eating. Well, I'm not a professional so don't ask me. I do have this handy friend Google however, and Google happens to have answers for most questions I ask. I found an article/blog called "Overcoming a compulsive eating disorder" Everything she was saying, I have felt! Imagine that... someone else has fought this battle and they are letting me read about it. If you struggle with something like this I recommend reading it, and if you don't (lucky!) I still recommend you read it, because you never know what you will get from it! 

One thing that she said in the article was:

"Telling a person with compulsive eating disorder to eat smaller portions, go on diet or eat healthier foods is like putting a burger and chips in front of someone with anorexia nervosa: pointless and painful." 

I have felt that. I know everything I am suppose to do. I have read and read and read all about the best ways to diet and know all the tips and tricks that you are suppose to do. It is just actually doing it that is the problem. In comes the mental plateau, I can know everything and try and try and try but if I don't feel it deep in my soul and in my thick head it isn't going to go anywhere. One thing they suggest when you look up how to overcome this obstacle is to make a journal, not just a food journal (like everywhere else) but a old school, honest to goodness, journal. Putting your feelings into words and then letting it out somehow instead of eating those feelings. 

I just started really researching this, but I haven't seen a lot of my plan. (Next post... I am still getting my thoughts sorted out on that one)