Wow What A Journey!!

I am kinda stinking at this blogging thing, and the last time I posted it wasn't a very happy post. So here I am... I have been "getting healthy" for three weeks. I just did my weigh in for week 3 and I am much happier this week than last week.

So, about last week. It was the "dreaded week two" and I can tell you that it was BAD!!! Like cry to my boyfriend while taking him to work and then calling my mom and crying to her bad. I followed ALL of the rules, did everything I was suppose to do, and worked my tush off. However, I gained weight... like three pounds gained. I couldn't figure out what I did wrong. I when back through my food journal and looked at all of my workouts and EVERYTHING was there. I did measure myself though and I had lost like 3 inches!!! Needless to say that made me feel a little better.

Anyways, I was saying that this week was better. I weighed this morning and I had lost those "extra" 3 three pounds AND another pound and a half! Apparently last week was just a weird adjustment period week, but everything balanced out and I am back on track.

I just want to remind everyone (myself really) that this is a process. There are going to be weird adjustment periods and "bad" weeks. You just need remember that this is a lifestyle and it is totally worth it in the long run. DO NOT GIVE UP, KEEP PUSHING YOURSELF, IT WILL GET BETTER!

Well... Here you go...

So I have really been putting in the work this week. I am DETERMINED to continue this journey. It is about me, its about MY life, its about MY health. I am going to post some before pictures. Looking at these pictures makes me ashamed and a bit depressed. I cannot go on like this!

RESTARTING

I restarted this week! I am actually pretty happy about this...

I created my own Food Log so that I can keep track of what I put into my mouth. I have a hard time deciding what "plan" I want to follow. I know that counting calories always works and is the base of every single one of those "plans". I also have watched people have a lot of success with Weight Watchers. I created my food log to give me space to keep track of the Weight Watchers Points Plus and also added columns for calorie counting. I am pretty proud of this little gem!

I also created a body measurements chart. I looked all over for a free one to just download and print but couldn't find one just right.... See, my body doesn't grow/shrink proportionally. One arm is bigger than the other and there is always a difference in my thighs! I also probably measure different than other people. My BIG problem area is my belly. So I measure my chest, waist (upper part), belly, hips, arms, and thighs. Now I don't know if everyone just counts their belly as their waist or if they do it as their hips, but I wanted the different measurement because it is the place that I want/need to lose the most!

Ok, so I am done for the day! I am going to post more in the future -- I promise!

Slacker...

Well, I kinda forgot about this blog... and that probably has a lot to do with the fact that I have NOT been trying to lose weight. I know I should have... the problem hasn't gone away... but I just stopped caring. I had some problems with my tummy over the last year, and they still don't know what is wrong with me. I know that my weight doesn't help. I am morbidly obese. I need to lose weight. Now something I don't understand is that my doctors are willing to do test over test and all of them come back normal but they pussyfoot around my weight... We both know that it has a lot do with the problem, but for some reason they won't say it. They don't offer advise or suggest I meet with their nutritionist, but you can't meet with the nutritionist without a referral... so explain that! I guess this post is more of a rant about nothing. I am working out a plan in my head. I have to get this situation out of control. The boy and I both know that we need to make significant changes to our eating habits and we need to start being more active. I guess that is the problem, we know what we need to do its just that neither of us want to actually get up and do it.

So, I am going to make more an effort to post on here more often and focus on DOING!

BANG!

I have been researching... well really just reading, a lot about DDP Yoga. My boyfriend is a REALLY big fan of WWE and DDP is a former wrestler, so he found a video of it and showed it to me. We started with just making a salad that DDP had a video for, and we loved it! So I started looking at other stuff... one of the major things you see when looking up DDPYoga is the video of Arthur which is very inspirational! 

There are so many other videos... and I started to get really interested. I looked up the website (http://www.ddpyoga.com/site/index.php/en/) and found that they have a payment plan option so I ordered... 

I started with going through the Diamond Dozen (13 moves that show up everywhere in the workouts) and today I did the ENERGY.... needless to say it kicked my butt! But something that I love so far is that you get what you put into the workout. Its all about engaging your muscles and using your own body to kick your ass. 

I am definitely going to keep doing this and watching what I am eating... wish me luck! 

I Suck...

Well here I am again....

I started this wonderful blog a long time ago. I started and then I quit and got sucked back into my fat, unhealthy, lazy lifestyle. Then I started again, and once again I got sucked in. Something about starting school and going to work just makes me wanna eat a whole lotta junk food.

I know I am making excuses... but I am back. I weigh more then when i originally started and it sucks!

So I am going to try again... try again... and try again.

I have a lot of friends on my Facebook that have also decided to "get healthy" and start working out. Great for them! Their posts are very inspirational! However, I am not going to do that. I know that I am posting on this blog and anyone could read it... but I don't want to fill up peoples walls with everything I am doing. I know I am going to have some trials with this and I don't really want all of those people to know every single time I fall back down.

So all in all... I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA WHAT I AM DOING!!!! I guess thats kinda the point though, I have to start from the beginning and work from there.

Refocusing

I am convinced that this is the hardest thing I have ever done. I get a good week and then I slip up and then I spiral down, and then I realize how far I have fallen and I climb back up.

THAT IS THE POINT! I climb back up... I have spent my WHOLE life eating bad and enjoying all that "bad" food. My mind frame and the way I have lived is not going to change over night. I am going to have slip up and off weeks, but now I have the ability to realize that I am messing up and that I need to pull myself back on track.

Don't let bad days slow you down, don't let bad weekends slow you down, and don't let bad weeks slow you down!

I CAN DO THIS!